It’s Just Me

Worth Living Ambassador Emily Nuttall

Emily was born in Guernsey in the Channel Islands on September 4th, 1993. She has been a volunteer, coach  and campaigner in her local community from the age of 15. She is part of a range of voluntary organisations that she is passionate about and inspired to carry out tasks for. This is for personal reasons and also from experiences she has faced and currently faces as part of being a campaigner and coach. Emily is working to improve local mental health services, raise awareness about young suicide, and eating disorders, as well as young homelessness and those affected by disabilities. Emily wishes to make a long lasting difference and impact to the people in her community and beyond. She ultimately wants to influence change and save lives.

 

It’s Just Me

Fighting my demons

Facing my fears

Something I’m ready to finally forever beat after many years

When I look in the mirror I need to be proud of me

Remind myself Every day that I can break free

Beauty and personality comes in many different ways 

And it’s important to remember that’s ok

I’m only human it’s ok to cry and break

After all life is a continuous journey of recovery and learning it’s ok to make mistakes 

Never give up when the challenge ahead feels scary and tough

Just like the waves in the sea when unpredictability at times it can be rough

Surround yourself with the people that love and care

Remind yourself that no matter what they’ll always be there

Never give up never lose hope

I promise there will always be a way to cope

When anorexia, depression, anxiety, self harm, flashbacks and thoughts of suicide try and take over me

Remember I am Emily and I can break free

Every day is a new day to give the battle another go

If I stay in this same place then I’ll never no

It’s been 12 years of fighting this continuous hell

And I finally more than ever want to be well

I am Emily and I will break free

I am not going to let my masks, fears, challenges and hurdles stop me

It’s time for me to be my own best friend 

The road ahead will be bumpy, scary and hard but I won’t stop till I reach the very end 

The darkness will soon be overtaken by the sky so beautiful and bright

Which will every day remind me that I will not give up this fight

It will be worth all these tears and fears

Because the future ahead is going to be healthy, happy and positive years

You are loved and wanted in this earth and place

Be proud of who you are and show your beautiful face

Because you will one day win this running race

So don’t give up when you wobble on your feet

Because this is a battle I am going to beat.

Remember the charities, helplines your treatment teams, family and friends 

Who will be right with you holding your hand to the very end

Remind yourself that nearly 2 and a half years out of inpatient is an achievement in itself

That you deserve to be well and have healthy physical and mental health

So stand tall Emily don’t give up this fight

I promise through the hardest, distressing and exhausting of days 

You will come out stronger and it will all be ok

You can beat this and break free

And go on to whatever you want to be

The world is your oyster go and grab it with both hands

Because you will reach your beautiful destination when you finally land.

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